Discuss.


For those of you who don't know what RMT is, it's "Real Money Trading" - the buying/selling of virtual assets for real life money.
Generally speaking, the legit player community has a negative view on RMT.

Analysis: I personally find a distinction between two different subtypes of RMT companies - honorable and dishonorable. Because I'm currently playing Aion, I'll be using Aion as an example. I generally group RMT services into three categories: Power Leveling, Gold Selling, and Item Selling. The difference between 'honorable' and 'dishonorable' RMT companies is the means by which they provide their services. For example, a dishonorable company would use bots to farm the gold they sell, whereas an honorable company would have actual people doing the farming, or buy from regular players who like to farm. (It boggles my mind, but I do know people on GW who make stacks of ecto a day legitly.) The only real distinction I can make in power leveling is whether the character is leveled using a bot script, or leveled by hand. I would also like to add that a lot of gold sites are probably untrustworthy. These are probably the same companies that spam in-game chat with advertisements.

Ethics: I don't want to go into detail, google it yourself, but the non-legit RMT companies are a pain towards the game companies. Not only because of spamming, but also because in P2P games like Aion, the botting companies are obtaining their accounts by fraudulent means as well as keylogging and hacking. The game company makes no money off of the botters' accounts but instead gets canceled payments and other fees. Anyone who would support these non-legit companies, quite frankly, I am unable to understand why.

What are your opinions on RMT? Do you think it is universally malicious, or can be separated into good/bad? Any personal experiences to share?

Over the next couple of days I hope to clean out my gallery (deleting/scrapping all but my favorites) and get this dA account up and running again.

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Along with this I'm doing a complete dev inbox wipe. That means I'll be missing out on a lot of good art that was drawn and uploaded during my absence, but I'll go insane if I have to sift through 10 thousand deviations. e_______e

I'll also be unwatching some people who spam sketch uploads or are no longer active.

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I used this account through Neopets, Gaia, and WoW... ~Arcane-Water for .hack .... ~duranin for Guild Wars. Now I'm coming back for Aion, but also hopefully with some nonspecific art mixed in.

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Something I find incredibly distressing is my inability to hold my own wherever I go. I'm pretty sure I ranted about this in the past on another journal, actually.

I think I'm innately social, and I like talking with people online.

I like being a part of things, and cooperating rather than competing (which explains my interest in raiding/aversion to PvP to some extent.)

At the same time I'm often way too sensitive for my own good, which pisses people off and makes the situation. I also have a very strong sense of right/wrong that prevents me from backing down when something starts up that I have a personal stake in.

Despite a desire of being social, I usually have trouble fitting in to communities. I'm also very far off from the stereotypes associated with girls online, which makes it hard for people to empathize with me when shit happens (that shouldn't happen to girls.)

I screw stuff up and am unable to fix it, so I always end up running away. Why should/shouldn't I? The Interwebs are vast, and there's always somewhere new to go. At the same time I also have a very strong sense of nostalgia and it's difficult for me to let things go. WoW is a unique case, because I was so thoroughly frustrated with guild drama and the emphasis on Achievements that I wanted to completely drop it. That and real life issues. Apart from that, however, I have regretted almost every major shift in interest that has happened to me online. Most of them were because of drama or because I couldn't fit in...

Click here for the rest of epic long journal.

I moved to

Originally I had planned to keep my new account pretty hush-hush due to WoW drama (and the people involved in said drama had a fondness for stalking my dA) but it's been a while, I don't particularly give two shits any more, and there's lots and lots I need to catch up on.

Toss me a message on my new account if you have spare time!
I've still been drawing, but it's been pretty spotty and I think my skill actually went backwards in some areas, lol.

Stolen from ~FallenAurora =w=

changes are bolded.

HOW MUCH HAVE YOU CHANGED IN 6 YEARS
-------------6 years ago----------

1.) How old were you?: 12
2.) Where did you go to school?: Cabin John Middle School
3.) Where did you work?: Unemployed
4.) Where did you live?: Maryland
5.) Where did you hang out?: Home
6.) Did you wear glasses?: Yes
7) Who was your best friend(s): Josi, Desiree, Amy, Christina Z.
8.) How many tattoos did you have? None
9.) How many piercings did you have? None
10.) What car did you drive? None
11.) Had you been to a real party?: I went to a sleepover in 5^th grade...
12.) Had you had your heart broken? No
13.)Single/Taken/Married/Divorced? Single

-------------3 years ago----------

1.) How old were you?: 15
2.) Where did you go to school? Thomas S. Wootton High School
3.) Where did you work?: Unemployed
4.) Where did you live?: Maryland
5.) Where did you hang out?: Home
6.) Did you wear glasses?: Yes
7.) Who were your best friend(s)?: ~MarmaladeNightmare, Desiree, Christina Z.
9.) How many tattoos did you have.? : None
10.) How many piercings did you have?: None
11) What car did you drive?: None
12) Had your heart broken?: Yes
13. Single/Taken/Married/Divorced?: Single

--------------------Today--------------------

1.) How old are you?: 18
2.) Where do you go to school? Thomas S. Wootton High School
3.) Where do you work?: Unemployed
4.) Where do you live?: Maryland
5.) Where do you hang out?: Home
6.) Who are your best friend(s)?: ~MarmaladeNightmare, Jon, Lisa
7.) How many tattoos do you have? None
8.) How many piercings do you have?: None
9) What car do you drive?: None
10) Had your heart broken?: Yes
11. Single/Taken/Married/Divorced?: Single

WHAT WERE YOU DOING...
1 MINUTE AGO: GuildWars
1 HOUR AGO: Sleeping
1 DAY AGO: School, WoW (raiding with guild in Ulduar 25)
1 YEAR AGO: Levelling to 70 on WoW

I LOVE: MMORPGs
I HATE: Hypocrites and Ignorant People
I FEAR: Death by Sickness (swine flu, cancer, HIV)
I FEEL: meh
I HIDE: from Reality
I MISS: My GPA in middle school. >_>
I NEED: Salvation
I KNOW: I'm screwed
I THINK: I'm confused!

First piercing: None
First credit card: None

Last big car ride: To Pennsylvania
Last movie seen in theaters: None
Last food consumed: Bubble Tea
Last person you texted/called: Tris (~MarmaladeNightmare)
Last CD played: None (I stream or torrent)
Last drink drank: Milk Tea

SHORT ANSWER.
I AM: Asian
I HAVE: Skill
I LIKE: Many things
I WISH: Magic existed in a more tangible form
I DANCE: /dance
I CRY: When nobody's looking

FAVORITES..
NUMBER: 3, 5, 8
COLOR: None/All/Undefined
DAY(S): Tuesday (love hate relationship)
MONTH(S): September
SEASON: Fall
DRINK: Milk Tea

IN THE LAST 2 DAYS, HAVE YOU...
CRIED?: Yes
HELPED SOMEONE?: Sort of
GOTTEN SICK?: No (Allergies)
GONE TO THE MOVIES?: No
SAID 'I love you'?: No
TALKED TO AN EX?: Yes
WRITTEN IN A DIARY?: No
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: Yes

_______ Best ________
1. Male Friend: Jon
2. Female Friend: Tris
3. Best Age: 18
4. Best Memory: The feeling of not having a constant sinking feeling in my heart.

_______ Worst ________
1. Time Of Day: Morning
2. Day Of The Week: Tuesday
3. Food: Eggplant
4. Memory: Being taunted in school and not having a witty comeback

_______ Last ________
1. Person you saw: Mom
2. Talk on the phone: Tris
3. Person you kissed: Mom
5: Instant Msg: Jon

_______ First ________

2. Serious b/f or g/f: Not Answering
3. Job: None

_______ Today ________
1. What are you doing now: GuildWars
2. Tonight: GuildWars
3. Wearing: Clothes
4. What did you eat for lunch: Nothing

_______ Tomorrow ________
1. Is: Saturday
2. Got any plans: Do Dailies on WoW and GW
3. Goal: ^
4. Dislikes about tomorrow: Piano Lessons
5. Likes about tomorrow: Non-raid Day

Why, why, why?

Why do I always pick the wrong path?

I had everything I wanted offered to me.

Instead I took the other path.

Now there's probably no going back,

and even if there were, it's going to be a very terrible journey.